Girl: so I wonder about your comment about you not being good enough. And I find it unsettling because I don't see it.

Joe: Because I was not good enough for you to be able to work with whatever would possible come up. I think there should be priorities in relationships. Especially to maintain them. And one of mine is to work through the hard times when things arent ideal and peachy and practicalities should never cause the end of things. Unless of course one isn't involved enough to work through it or be willing to try. Therefore I must not have been good enough for those priorities to exist. Instead it was just easier to end it i guess. Thats how it makes me feel. I think i feel that the reason you gave was kind of silly and somewhat selfish.

Girl: Do you see us talking/being friends for reals in the future?

Joe:I don't know

Girl: Why? Cuz you think negatively of me?

Joe: because there is still hurt right now. And right now I don't even put much thought into whether or not we will be friends.I don't think negatively of you. Your reasons yes, but not you. I swear. Its like you want to have your cake and eat it too. After all the time I knew you you were never fully over eric. I can't just hop on the friend train. I am sorry that you think I should be able to.

Girl: Sorry for wondering...that's cool I don't need no FUCKING cake

Joe: Do not get mad at me. You have no reason to react that way. You ask me questions and then get mad when I tell you the truth about how I am feeling. Its like you have no respect for my feelings and the role you played in influencing them. All I need is some understanding and empathy for crying out loud. You know how it feels to be dumped. Why do you want me to put myself back into your life before I am ready emotionally? It's not fair.

Girl: That comment(the cake and eat it too) was offensive...there's a difference between that and stating a feeling. I'll leave you alone now. good night.

Joe: Well I am sorry you took offense. Thats the way it feels. I mean. Two weeks after you dumped me you wanted to talk on the fone and have a conversation like we were best buds. It just doesn;t work that way and for you to think it does is denying your own personal experience and the reality of the situation.Making it extremely unfair.

Joe: And since it seems like you want to text me so I can get myself yelled at then how about you let me contact you when I am ready. Unless of course you want to apologize for breaking my heart[because she never did--not even an "i'm sorry"]. Its like it was nothing for you to drop me. Well, it wasn't nothing for me.

Girl: I am sorry. I didn't want to break your heart. Its not like I just went on my way...i deal with it differently. I don't view it as nothing Joe..i doubt youd understand it but I feel hurt by it. and sure. I will leave you alone. I apologize for crossing that line as well.

Joe: I just need time. I need you to be patient. I don't want to pretend that you don't exist. But for my own sanity...i have to not communicate.

sweet.

Are you Joe?

Someone text messaged that? That is awesome! I can't even figure out how to type my name into my cell phone.

haha. yes. I am joe. I am not "girl".

I am a text nazi.

your thumbs must hurt like a mofo.

i am conditioned.

I love text messaging. It means I don't have to talk on the phone, which I hate. But this type of conversation (text or otherwise) sucks.

It takes me several minutes just to text something like, "hey you want to eat?" I am not conditioned well.

The key to successful phone conversation is to not actually pay attention. Do a crossword puzzle or draw on a desk calendar.

You are one serious hunt'n'pecker-head. I am duly impressed.

just to clarify:

my title here is sarcastic. I am not attempting to prove my worth through my texting capabilities.



this conversation has been a bi-monthly routine. it's tiresome. Despite my being well-conditioned.