Max Wrote:
Why did you have to crash your own reunion? Were you previously banned or something?
I forgot it was even happening, and then i ran into our old student council president when i was getting breakfast in my hometown (visiting my little brother before he went to seminary), and I recognized her, but she had no idea who i was, and I made the mistake of saying hi. So she invited me to it, and gave me her business card with the place and date on it. So i e-mailed her, just out curiousity, but never got a reply, and then the day of came, and I didn't have a gig or a rehearsal, so I went.
It was ... wierd. I can't decide who's more fucked up, these people or me. They're all 28-ish, and alot of them look like they're either in their 40's, or their still in h.s./college. And I'm like, I know every single one of these people, and they all know me... but who the hell did i hang out with? Answer: none of them... none of my close friends had shown up. Some of my peripheral friends did though. And I quit drinking a couple of months ago, so I'm the only sober fucker at this clambake. I've been dieting so i can't eat any of the shit they're dishing out. So i get a cup of ice from the bar, and hit the water fountain, and all I hear all night is, "where did your hair go, you look SO DIFFERENT! I didn't even recognize you... blah blah blah". And I came to the conclusion that not only am I pretty abnormal right now, but i've always been abnormal. And that makes me a little sad, not that I want the kids, and the boring job, and the spouse and the house and coaching little league. But maybe at one point I did want those things, and I know that I can't be responsible and take part in those aspects of life because I choose to pursue music with every waking hour that isn't spent on teaching. It was nice to see maybe three people. But you can't really say we renewed any kind of friendship because we're all living such busy lives that we'll be lucky if we run into each other at the 20th.
So to sum it up, yeah, i guess i kind of feel like a schlub.
Man, I could go for a beer. Yeah, I know it's 5:43 in the morning. I'll have some black coffee instead.
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Flying Rabbit Wrote:
I don't eat it every morning, I do however, pull it out sometimes.