i went to a triathlon store this afternoon in search of random things that i might've forgotten (sunscreen wipes, any cool gadgets for the bike, etc.) and the salesguy did what drives me absolutely apeshit... he asked what i was looking for and when i said, "stuff for sunday's tri.", he said, "ohhh... you're doing the triathlon? have you done one before?" he had this scrunchy face when he said it and it annoyed me. then, when i was looking at a shirt (looking! didn't even take it off the hanger!) he said, "i don't think we have a shirt in your size." not even, "we don't have that shirt in your size." i wanted to kick him in the shin and say, "look buddy, i did one of these when i was 50 pounds heavier and in terrible shape." maybe i should start carrying around before and after pictures. that sort of treatment hasn't happened in a while, so it kind of soured my mood for about an hour. now, i'm fine and i'm going to use his tactless comment as fuel for sunday. anyway, i put down the $75 worth of stuff in my arms and told him to have a nice day.

i should burn the store down.

but shit, other than that, today's an awesome day.

this is exactly how i feel today. i'm at a point of frustration because i've been trying so hard to do well and shit just keeps happening and i keep getting blamed for other people's mistakes.

i got yelled at today. i can't explain myself because the person just yells. i have to take all the bullshit and get told not-so-nice things. it doesn't help that i barely got any sleep last night and i'm retardedly hungover.